I have to
get my to do lists right
or I might
get a great big fright
if I don’t
check my family’s alright
I will stay
up all the night
When I get horrible
nightmares
I scream and
screech inside.
Feeling my
horrible fears make me want to fight
the
monstrous feelings inside me
that laugh
at me at night.
Even though
I try to battle the doubt and fears inside me
it always
seems to turn up with another fight.
I try to
explain to people that it doesn’t feel alright
and that
there is ‘IT’ larking around in my brain
and making
me want to cry again.
All day long
it eats my brain away
making me
forget about the lovely person
that
apparently I used to be
Surely this
really isn’t right.