I have to get my to do lists right

or I might get a great big fright

if I don’t check my family’s alright

I will stay up all the night

When I get horrible nightmares

I scream and screech inside.


Feeling my horrible fears make me want to fight

the monstrous feelings inside me

that laugh at me at night.

Even though I try to battle the doubt and fears inside me

it always seems to turn up with another fight.


I try to explain to people that it doesn’t feel alright

and that there is ‘IT’ larking around in my brain

and making me want to cry again.


All day long it eats my brain away

making me forget about the lovely person

that apparently I used to be

Surely this really isn’t right.